Alfa's welcomu partyrururu

Well, after a whole week of waiting I had the opportunity to experience "Alfa's welcomu partyruru". I had it all planned. I was going to have a great time. Diana and Mariel would join us for a while, but after leaving them home we would really REALLY party. Have tons of nice chats, celebrate Toma's birthday and stay up until 5 or 6 am. Ha ha.

The party was... hmmmm... lame. The flat was filled with a lot of unknown people. Friends of the roomie Memo, and they were not our kinda people. Almost nobody is our kind of people. So we sat down and "talk". I wrote "talk" with the "" on purpose 'coz I felt really left out of the conversation. I dunno if it is something that happens or it just something that happened today, or if it is something that happens to me... who knows?

The thing is that during the whole night Mariel and I really tried to catch up with everybody's chat, but somehow I felt left tout... Mariel is a really shy, introverted girl, and sometimes it really doesn't seems that she is "inside" a conversation, but when she sits there, with her eyes open, looking at you and smiling/laughing/blushing she really IS into the chat. And I, well you know me, I am way too loud.

Blanco, Hector and Tomas were talking to each other all night... using "code" talking, even talking in Japanese and a bunch of things that knocked out of the play. Even at the end of the night, after I gave Mariel a ride home and came back to have talk, I was left out.... they were already talking about something, and when I tried to get into the chat they practically ignored me... for real... I had to ask them a couple of times until they told me what they were talking about, and when the finally told me they just turn around and kept talking… bastards.

Now, just for leaving things clear: Mariel and I were not cuddling nor kissing. I had, sometimes, my arm around her shoulders... I was just sitting next to her or even on the floor!!! So the whole "Victor and Mariel were having their own time" excuse does not apply here.

Something else that might explain it but will really suck if that was the case is that my brother and Blanco tend to have… funny/disgusting talks… constantly talking about genitals, boobs, semen and all that stuff. Obviously Mariel blushes and really doesn’t know how to react… she is a girl and she is 17… so I do understand her. I dunno if that might be the case, and ‘coz of Mariel’s and my reaction (I tend to cover her ears as I joke or yell at my brother “please stop”) they acted like they did.

But as my friends I would expect them to try harder to make things smoother and easier for her… I remember that when Diana was starting to see Erick we would cut down the nasty jokes. And when my brother was dating Abby (for example) he would ask me to behave myself… to control my bad language and the nasty jokes… and you know what? I did it and I did it ‘coz of my brother and ‘coz of Erick.

If my brother and Blanco take the “That’s the way we are” attitude… well, that is sad. Mariel tell me that she is not uncomfortable with the jokes, and she blushes ‘coz she wants to laugh but is too embarrassed to do it. I am not asking them to go easy on the jokes ‘coz of her, but ‘coz of me.

There are some jokes that are really disgusting and sometimes demeaning to women, and I am not comfortable with them saying those kinda things in front of her. I mean, is it so hard to do “normal” jokes for a couple of hours once in a while? I am not saying to cut the “red” jokes. Not at all. I am asking to please keep them tolerable, inside the “not too freaky” level, the “not too graphic level, please leave something to the imagination” level.

Now... maybe I am sentimental... but I really feel sad when I think that maybe my friends doesn't like Mariel... or they are not comfortable around her, and because of that I will never be able to have a nice time with my friends if she is around!!!! That is just sad.

I have my theories... maybe it has something to do with my brother or Blanco... 'coz last time I took Mariel with me and my friends (Pancho, Mariaiaia, Oliver and Ireri) things worked out just great. Today... it simply didn't work.

Mariel does like my friends and my brother!!! I know that for a fact! She is just a quiet person, or al least she is when surrounded by a lot of people. And I do understand her... the same thing happens to me when I am with her friends... but they don't just simply cut us out!!! They keep talking to us.

Bah... I don't know... I feel frustrated and irritated... most of the night sucked. I spent like a billion dollars in beers that I wasn't able to drink. Good quality beer. Sigh.

I wanted to have a good time. I wanted to have a good chat with Blanco. I wanted a sleep over... but none of them happened.