You know...

... you are doing well when you go to sleep with a big goofy smile in your face. Seriously, I think that is one of the best moments of the day. I am more a morning person, you know?, I love to wake up when the sun wakens me and I love to wake up with a smile, remembering your dreams or yesterday… but there is certainly a charm in going to bed happy and smiling. I hardly do that, for me going to sleep is almost a ritual in which I love to wonder in my thoughts, write something and look to the stars from my window.. it is more like an introspection moment for me.

Yesterday, probably for the first time in a long time I applied the “Victor Padilla Test” to someone… maybe I’ll make a post with the question I have added thru the years (for real, that test was created like three years ago by Pancho and I, and I have making bigger and bigger each time I apply it ´coz I ask them to add a question to it, it begun with three or so questions). Anyway, I applied this test and I really have fun, it is great when you get good answers and even better when those answers open a window to a person’s heart and you really get to know them better.

I applied the Test to Mariel, this really cute, intelligent, interesting girl… she is kinda gothic/metal/alternative girl… I gotta tell you guys, she is one of a kind and I am really happy to be able to meet her… I am also scared, it’s been a long time since I felt like this, and it scares the hell out of me… I am afraid to jump into something that I am not ready to fully enjoy, and I am also afraid that this withdrawal, this “let’s wait until things clear out for me” will sabotage my relationship with this girl. If there is any ¬_¬

Damn!!! I forgot how complicate this kinda stuff is… love is a funny thing, it feels nice and fuzzy and all… but if it gets you unprepared it also feels like a kick in your stomach…

Oh well… someone, please calm me down or else I’m going to explode.