My divided self...

You see, what happens right now is weird... weird like in "I've never felt like this before". That kinda strange feeling of stepping in the unknown, leaving all that is safe and sane behind, and entering the wicked world of love, confusion and romance. That's how weird I feel... get it?

I am grown up man now... or at least that what I'd like to believe. I have faced hardship, I have seen friends and love ones die, I have been broken hearted, I have done a lot of stuff in the last 5 years that I feel like I am closer to be a man than a kid.... However, knowing this is only making things harder for me, because sometimes I realize that I am not allowing myself to feel what I need to feel and to commit all kinda stupid and pathetic things.

... sigh. How did Mariel managed to make me love her that much?

One part of me wants to move on... he knows that this is probably for the best.
The other part though... juts wants to be with Mariel.

And to make things worst i ran into her today... she was beautifull.

Damn.