I think too much...
Well... the big lesson that i learnt this week is that I THINK WAY TOO FAST.
Things with Mariel have being way too complicated for my head and my heart. I was angry with her, then we kinda broke up, and then i missed her a lot and the we got back together and then I am feeling helpless... Its weird how being in a relationship can make you sometime feel so lonely, like inmerse in a love, but by yourself.
Thats the way I am feeling right now. I feel like I love Mariel a lot, and she doesnt loves me back. I am not saying that she hates me or anything... but for the love of God, she is 18, and now i realize that she might be in a point in fer life when she needs to ber ALONE.
... or not.
Or I maybe over reacting again and thinkiny way too much and too fast. Damn it!
I've came to believe that my problem is, basically, the uncertainty. The fact that I really don't know whats going on, what does she really feels and what the heck is the status of our relationship. When I finally told her that I love her and miss her he acted great, she told me she was sorry and bla bla bla... hugs and all the rest. Happy Good times.
But as soon as we part... pffft! Again the feeling that she doesnt care about me comes again... she didnt answer back my "happy new year message", but hey!, relax... probably she didnt get it.
... ARGH!
Its so complicated and freaking weird that its funny. Most of the people i know have had "love issues" in this change of year. WEIRD.
Anyways... This 2006 promises to be interesting. Let's see what surprises are in store and how life will feel like now that my brother is gonna live in Canada.
Happy New Year!
... i guess ¬_¬
Things with Mariel have being way too complicated for my head and my heart. I was angry with her, then we kinda broke up, and then i missed her a lot and the we got back together and then I am feeling helpless... Its weird how being in a relationship can make you sometime feel so lonely, like inmerse in a love, but by yourself.
Thats the way I am feeling right now. I feel like I love Mariel a lot, and she doesnt loves me back. I am not saying that she hates me or anything... but for the love of God, she is 18, and now i realize that she might be in a point in fer life when she needs to ber ALONE.
... or not.
Or I maybe over reacting again and thinkiny way too much and too fast. Damn it!
I've came to believe that my problem is, basically, the uncertainty. The fact that I really don't know whats going on, what does she really feels and what the heck is the status of our relationship. When I finally told her that I love her and miss her he acted great, she told me she was sorry and bla bla bla... hugs and all the rest. Happy Good times.
But as soon as we part... pffft! Again the feeling that she doesnt care about me comes again... she didnt answer back my "happy new year message", but hey!, relax... probably she didnt get it.
... ARGH!
Its so complicated and freaking weird that its funny. Most of the people i know have had "love issues" in this change of year. WEIRD.
Anyways... This 2006 promises to be interesting. Let's see what surprises are in store and how life will feel like now that my brother is gonna live in Canada.
Happy New Year!
... i guess ¬_¬
1 Comments:
At 10:01 AM,
darth_julius said…
Just take it easy dude!, don't trust at all on cell phones or phone messages, sometimes don't work specially on those days.. Besides if you don't call her because she doesn't do the same for you is just creating a "Vicious circle" think back if she is thinking the same thing. Well I had that kind of feeling with Anny a couple of months ago, women expect us to be more reactive, if she doesn't care for you show her HOW MUCH YOU care for her... then, you'll have your awaited response ;).. Good luck!
Post a Comment
<< Home