Beat the week...

Well, last week can be easily classifies as the shittiest week in a long time for me. Lots of things happening, life moving way too fast and mostly in not... uhm... pretty ways.

First things first. Last Saturday Mariel and I broke up. Apparently she is going through some phase that have her all confused and she is "not able to commit herself to a relationship and needs to be alone". Dwelling in this issue a little more... well, yeah it hurt. I can't say I didn't see it coming. Things were weird for the last month or so, but I still had the hope that things will get better.

Right Now? Well... right now I still have feelings for her, and I know that if she manage to put her shit together soon and ask me to get back together I most likely will say yes, but I also know myself and I know that love weakens with time in this situations, and if she takes too long... well, I doubt that I'll say yes.

... but that's just wishful thinking, right? She may naver want to get back together.

Yesterday I had short, yet nice chat with her... and I helped me a lot to "let go", to say things I needed to say and to "get the feeling" of what's really going on. Right now I feel like I can trust what I felt yesterday... and I feel much better now.

*sigh* I miss her... and I miss the way things used to be when they were O.K.


This whole "Mariel" affair probably surrounded me with "bad vibes" and made me see life a little shittier. I was supposed to buy a car last Tuesday. A really good opportunity (price wise and car wise), but the car was taken Monday afternoon... so... pfffft... no car for me.

The good news? Well... we found a new car. A really good opportunity too, and we actually closed the deal on that one. So I HAVE A NEW CAR NOW!!! ^-^

Also I am encountering some problems with finding a job, my school schedule is kinda getting in the way, and last Friday when I tried to fix it they acted really “bureaucratic” and nasty... sigh... I haven’t really work my way around this thing, but I am sure things will turn out for the best.

... what else? Well... i got a really bad flu last Friday, but am better now.

and... well... the weekend was awesome! A great concert and company on Saturday and nice chat with friends on Sunday ^-^


So I'd like to think I won... last week is gone and things will only get better.

Send good vibes!