Just to do it... again...

Well, much to my surprise and astonishment, things with Mariel are going great... ^_^ It's really great to have her around, and she is one of the nicest girls I've ever known. In fact, I'd never thought I'd be able to care about her this much; it's a strange feeling, but at some level I was convinced that I was through with love and caring, that from now on I will have fun and enjoy (like that radiohead song -fitter happier- when it says "fun, but not in love")... nevertheless, little by little I've discovered myself doing things (like smiling, blushing, jumping around...) when she is around, that now I starting to believe that I've really fallen for her. She just captivated me.

Why the "Just to do it.. again..." title? This is a line of one of my favorite PULP songs (i don't remember the name right now) that touches me deeply. What this line means for me, is that happiness and joy come in the same package that hardship and sadness, and it is almost a proven fact that people will always have troubles, and at some level if you fall in love with someone you will get hurt... but it's worth it, and being hurt and sad is one of the most wonderful gifts love can give you, 'coz it helps you to cherish what's really important, it makes you feel alive. All this "Love-hurting" process is great, fun and beautiful and now I'm convinced that I will try to give it all to fully surrender to this experience with Mariel and enjoy it like I'm supposed to.

Well, enough of these senseless ramblings...

C'ya and... go hug a tree or something ¬_¬