winter colours...
Lately my brother has being behaving a little strange, but now I understand why, I read his blog today queloco.tk, and it hit me. I should have known better and do not take him seriously, he needed some understanding that is all.
He is very sad, and I think I understand him. One of his dearest friends, Pau, went away to study in France and I belive that hit him pretty hard, all of our friends are slowly going away. This last few months have been very strange for us, last month was a shitty one, when we actually thought our house was hunted or something beacuse of all the shit that was happening to us (that is an old story, if you like you can check it up in my previous posts), last month Ireri broke up with me and I faced some of the most difficult days in my life, and even now her presence is managing to keep taunting me, like last Friday, when all of the sudden my friends manage to make me feel very guilty about going out with Mariel… I was shocked, my brother tried to convince me that they were just “joking”, but it hurt me really bad, to a point where I was no longer feeling comfortable and I started to make other feel uncomfortable. Anyways…
Last month sucked because of lot of reasons… then this month is a “good-bye” month. Quite a few friends of us are going away, Alex, Joey, Pau… I mean, I am very happy for them, to se them doing what they want to do, but it still feels weird in your guts when you say good-bye to someone with the certainty that you wont see them in a long time.
I am really thankful for having the opportunity of getting to know Mariel, she has helped me in more ways that she will ever know… she has gave me something to think about, something to be excited about, a little inspiration, emotional emancipation and a smile every night.
My brother told me that my blog was much more interesting back when I was all depressed and posting about how much life sucks… that is awful, that for most of us people “depressing”, “sad”, and “tears” and words much more “entertaining” than “smile”, “happy”, and “joy”.
That is fucked up… but sadly it is true, my blog is having fewer visits since I started writing about me being happy…
For those who read my blog for the sake of knowing how I am doing… thank you…
For those who read it just because they felt better entertained knowing that I was down and depressed… go and kill a kitten, maybe you will find that sad enough for you to be happy =P
Well, c'ya guys... now I am sure that I WILL post a chronicle of my date with Mariel, so check my blog tomorrow morning or tonight... ^_^
He is very sad, and I think I understand him. One of his dearest friends, Pau, went away to study in France and I belive that hit him pretty hard, all of our friends are slowly going away. This last few months have been very strange for us, last month was a shitty one, when we actually thought our house was hunted or something beacuse of all the shit that was happening to us (that is an old story, if you like you can check it up in my previous posts), last month Ireri broke up with me and I faced some of the most difficult days in my life, and even now her presence is managing to keep taunting me, like last Friday, when all of the sudden my friends manage to make me feel very guilty about going out with Mariel… I was shocked, my brother tried to convince me that they were just “joking”, but it hurt me really bad, to a point where I was no longer feeling comfortable and I started to make other feel uncomfortable. Anyways…
Last month sucked because of lot of reasons… then this month is a “good-bye” month. Quite a few friends of us are going away, Alex, Joey, Pau… I mean, I am very happy for them, to se them doing what they want to do, but it still feels weird in your guts when you say good-bye to someone with the certainty that you wont see them in a long time.
I am really thankful for having the opportunity of getting to know Mariel, she has helped me in more ways that she will ever know… she has gave me something to think about, something to be excited about, a little inspiration, emotional emancipation and a smile every night.
My brother told me that my blog was much more interesting back when I was all depressed and posting about how much life sucks… that is awful, that for most of us people “depressing”, “sad”, and “tears” and words much more “entertaining” than “smile”, “happy”, and “joy”.
That is fucked up… but sadly it is true, my blog is having fewer visits since I started writing about me being happy…
For those who read my blog for the sake of knowing how I am doing… thank you…
For those who read it just because they felt better entertained knowing that I was down and depressed… go and kill a kitten, maybe you will find that sad enough for you to be happy =P
Well, c'ya guys... now I am sure that I WILL post a chronicle of my date with Mariel, so check my blog tomorrow morning or tonight... ^_^
4 Comments:
At 8:45 AM,
Unknown said…
mmmm...
Maybe is the sorrow the responsible behind this post.
I think that you care a lot about another people said about you.
Family and/or friends comments can be useful but in the end what you think is the most important thing.
It’s easy for people talk about what others must do.
Don’t care so much about that.
Now about the fact that you have more people reading your blog when you write sad things is a natural fact in life.
I think that most people read your blog to know how are you.
Now that you are right and in a good mood, people think that they don’t need to follow your life (reading you blog) anymore.
Because they aren’t in alert mode anymore.
They must think victor is right for now.
We don’t need to worry about him for a time.
Now I must say that you write less now that you are happy.
You write less about your self and how you feel about your things.
Yours happy posts are shorter than the sad posts.
And about this sentence: “For those who read it just because they felt better entertained knowing that I was down and depressed… go and kill a kitten, maybe you will find that sad enough for you to be happy”.
Well again you was thinking about what another people think about your blog. Do you write this blog for you or for others? Think about that.
Read you later.
At 9:53 AM,
Artax said…
You are right David, I do tend to care a lot about what my close friends and brother tell me. I have to work in that.
About me bitching of the reason people stopped reading my blog... well... hehehe.. I was just having fun, but it does sadden me we tend to focus in the bad news only... it worries me, I mean, what do that say of us as a society? It is like the movie "Bowling for Colombine".
I really do write this bog for myself... but I do like to reach and touch people lifes.
At 7:44 PM,
Guillermo said…
How cheap can you get? Posting your date, just to get your fix of how many people read your blog! Unbelievable! What's next? Telling people how to torture kittens... how sick can this get...
At 4:28 PM,
Artax said…
he he he...
you are rigth... I DO should make a post on how to torture kittens. Life's wonderful revelations come to us in mysterious ways.
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