debugging please...
Am in hell... A hell known as "PPI the worst class ever"... 103 people packed up in a classroom that is usually filled with 40 or so.
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Yesterday I was having a chat with Erick, and it helped me a lot to realize that in order to be able to be with Mariel and fully enjoy her... I first must run a "debug" for all the files archived under the name "Ireri" in my brain. Really, angst was starting to accumulate in me when I realize that I was forever comparing them. Mariel is a awesome girl, and she deserves a fresh relationship with me.
I am very excited about what is going on with her... and at some level I putting all my energy into that relationship, but for now, most of the energy was spent trying not to make comparisons.
Anyway... this is really fucked up... am not feeling OK. I was OK until yesterday when I finished this master piece of a gift to Mariel. I put all I had into it... and I am really satisfied with the outcome... but suddenly I freaked out when I realized what I have done... maybe this gift is too much!!!!
Is it?
Maybe I am over reacting with all this?
Am I?
Maybe it is too soon?
Is it?
argh... this is hard... I have to debug Ireri, I have to calm down and find out what I really want with Mariel... and I have to STOP THINKING THIS MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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.
.
.
Yesterday I was having a chat with Erick, and it helped me a lot to realize that in order to be able to be with Mariel and fully enjoy her... I first must run a "debug" for all the files archived under the name "Ireri" in my brain. Really, angst was starting to accumulate in me when I realize that I was forever comparing them. Mariel is a awesome girl, and she deserves a fresh relationship with me.
I am very excited about what is going on with her... and at some level I putting all my energy into that relationship, but for now, most of the energy was spent trying not to make comparisons.
Anyway... this is really fucked up... am not feeling OK. I was OK until yesterday when I finished this master piece of a gift to Mariel. I put all I had into it... and I am really satisfied with the outcome... but suddenly I freaked out when I realized what I have done... maybe this gift is too much!!!!
Is it?
Maybe I am over reacting with all this?
Am I?
Maybe it is too soon?
Is it?
argh... this is hard... I have to debug Ireri, I have to calm down and find out what I really want with Mariel... and I have to STOP THINKING THIS MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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