little by little...
Now am sure, I passing thru the most difficult days of my life... I don't really know where to start, first of all Ireri broke up with me (a difficult enough situation per se) and the problem is not really what she has done, the problem is that I have the same feelings towards her... really, if it was up to me, nothing of this would have happened. For what is worst, I know that at the same time that I'm in pain `coz of the breaking up she might be as happy and light as a little... dunno... butterfly ¬_¬.
You see the problem there? Maybe she is already in some other state (that in fact she is) hanging around with her new wannabe boyfriend (that I don't know) kissing and doing some other stuff (that... oh God! I hope not).
Besides Quique has left my house, apparently some problems between my mother and his wicked and crooked (I liked those words) aunts and his sister. So, Quique is now in taking some time off from these problems, he said he wanted to take some time to clear his head before he could take a side... I personally don't believe it... is not about taking sides, it is about that Quique's life is changing just because some ridiculuos problems that aren't really his.
And... guess what? Just to continue this tragic victim story I have to say what follows: MY HOUSE IS HAUNTED!!!! and I'm not saying this as a joke... really something is wrong there, the vibes are not the same and yesterday my family and I were trying to clean it up a little (we all have taken reiki courses so we know how to do it)... it gave me the chills. I kwow that most of the people do not believe in that sort of things so I'm not getting into details, but it was hard. What makes it a little bit more difficult is that my mom doesn't believe that she is enough to clean the house... so in the very same moment my mom begins to hesitate the strenght of our family flickers.
Don't get me started with my mom... p-p-please, she is always the victim... I do not feel confortable talking about my problems `coz in the moment I do it she starts making them her problems!!! And I end up making HER feel better... what's that about? Is not fair and she did it when Ireri broke up with me and she did it again yesterday when Quique was confused, crying and all the rest while he was leaving the house.
I can continue with this but I wont... is not about the huge list of things that aren't working in my life (`coz there are quite a few more)... this is about that because of all of these things I haven't being able to cry and mourn for what happened with Ireri... and I know that's bad... I want to cry but I feel that at some level I AM NOT ALLOWED TO CRY
You see the problem there? Maybe she is already in some other state (that in fact she is) hanging around with her new wannabe boyfriend (that I don't know) kissing and doing some other stuff (that... oh God! I hope not).
Besides Quique has left my house, apparently some problems between my mother and his wicked and crooked (I liked those words) aunts and his sister. So, Quique is now in taking some time off from these problems, he said he wanted to take some time to clear his head before he could take a side... I personally don't believe it... is not about taking sides, it is about that Quique's life is changing just because some ridiculuos problems that aren't really his.
And... guess what? Just to continue this tragic victim story I have to say what follows: MY HOUSE IS HAUNTED!!!! and I'm not saying this as a joke... really something is wrong there, the vibes are not the same and yesterday my family and I were trying to clean it up a little (we all have taken reiki courses so we know how to do it)... it gave me the chills. I kwow that most of the people do not believe in that sort of things so I'm not getting into details, but it was hard. What makes it a little bit more difficult is that my mom doesn't believe that she is enough to clean the house... so in the very same moment my mom begins to hesitate the strenght of our family flickers.
Don't get me started with my mom... p-p-please, she is always the victim... I do not feel confortable talking about my problems `coz in the moment I do it she starts making them her problems!!! And I end up making HER feel better... what's that about? Is not fair and she did it when Ireri broke up with me and she did it again yesterday when Quique was confused, crying and all the rest while he was leaving the house.
I can continue with this but I wont... is not about the huge list of things that aren't working in my life (`coz there are quite a few more)... this is about that because of all of these things I haven't being able to cry and mourn for what happened with Ireri... and I know that's bad... I want to cry but I feel that at some level I AM NOT ALLOWED TO CRY
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