when the music stops...

Words and pretty rhymes take about 2o minutes to form a poem or a sonete, but the feelings portrayed in those words take a lifetime to come and an eternity to fade away.
 
I had a guys night yesterday with my friends (coke, cesar, javo, blanco and pancho) and it was a nice evening until somewhere between the ninth and the tenth beer, when pancho said it: "Ireri broke up with Victor"... from that moment we began to speak about relationships, Ireri, breaking up, feeling blue and all those sort of things. I really had a good time, I mean, it was not a joy ride talking about those kind of stuff but it helped me to realize that somehow am not alone.
 
I've being thinking a lot, and now I've realized that I KNOW what is to come, but my FEELINGS wont give in into those changes, my feelings are still holding me back, still making me awful and confused.. I mean, just a few moments ago I was about to cry just beacuse I heard the name of a song, I didn't listen to the song, I just heard the name and it broke my heart... the song is named UNISON and it is one of the most wonderful, intimate and beautiful love songs that I know... songs that remind me of a time in my life that is gone. And I wonder : will I ever be able to listen to a love song without feeling depresed?
 
I hear a voice inside that is whispering , urging me to cry an let it all out...