I just wanna be alone...

First of all... let´s get this straight, I'll write in this blog/therapy in the lenguage I desire. Right now I really want to write in english... I dunno why, but I guess is has something to do with my mood.

I just took a short walk... my brother told me it might help me to walk around and think, but right now, thinking is not helping ´coz I can't help it... am always thinking about this tiny little thing in my life, and I guess that the size doesn´t really matter, what matters is the enormous hole that has left deep inside.

I wonder... what will happen to music now? what will happen to writting? and all of those things that reminds me of her. for some reason, every dammable piece of music that I hear reminds of her ... I guess my mind is not on my side.

I just want to go, y'know? I want to rise to the sky, close my eyes and fly around for quite some while.

What´s the use to cling to words
when they became just words
What´s the use to cling to a smile
when it no longer feels warm
What's the use to laugh and cry
when everything's shatter inside
What's the use to look into the eyes
when all you get is your reflection
What's the use to all of this...
What... please... tell me... someone?