Only one...
Yes... is our life, but remember that we have only one, so think carefully, we'll never get this moment back.
My life...
There is so much going on in my life lately. Good things mostly. I am working at a summer camp, and although is one of the most tiresome experiences since my trip to Oaxaca, am having a blast. Getting to spend the whole day surrounded by kids is great... they have a certaing vibe, a certain energy and innocence that puts me in a good mood for the rest of the day ^-^
I know for a fact that I want to have children of my own... Which leads me to my next topic.
I am blessed. I met a girl that pretty much fits in my "dream girl" image. Mariel is a great, intelligent, jolly, geeky, interesting, music and art lover, good looking girl. Somehow I can't help to hear this tiny voice inside my head that constantly tells me "is too soon", "she is too young", "I thought you said you wanna get married 'till your early thirties"
The voice is right. We are both too young... so what am I supposed to do? Be her boyfriend for ten more years?... that sounds hard.
But I do love her!!! I just can't walk away from this just because a tiny "pig's voice" inside my head.
My friend Blanco is passing through a shitty experience right now... and somehow it made remember a lot of things, and it just hitted me that I haven't commit myself to Mariel the way I did with Ireri. Is strange, but last time I was in love I even started building my life around my girl... every step I made had her escence all over it, but now I "know better", now I won't allow myself to put all my eggs in one basket. I love Mariel, love every little thing about her, but I haven't let go.
Why is that? Am I protecting myself at some uncouncious level? Or this is the way relationships get?
I know that if I get married of end up sharing my life with someone, I would like her to be a girl like Mariel... so what the fuck?
Bargh... hehehehe...
I just wish I don't end up doing anything stupid that I'll regret for the rest of my life.
(sorry for my spelling errors and stuff... quick post)
My life...
There is so much going on in my life lately. Good things mostly. I am working at a summer camp, and although is one of the most tiresome experiences since my trip to Oaxaca, am having a blast. Getting to spend the whole day surrounded by kids is great... they have a certaing vibe, a certain energy and innocence that puts me in a good mood for the rest of the day ^-^
I know for a fact that I want to have children of my own... Which leads me to my next topic.
I am blessed. I met a girl that pretty much fits in my "dream girl" image. Mariel is a great, intelligent, jolly, geeky, interesting, music and art lover, good looking girl. Somehow I can't help to hear this tiny voice inside my head that constantly tells me "is too soon", "she is too young", "I thought you said you wanna get married 'till your early thirties"
The voice is right. We are both too young... so what am I supposed to do? Be her boyfriend for ten more years?... that sounds hard.
But I do love her!!! I just can't walk away from this just because a tiny "pig's voice" inside my head.
My friend Blanco is passing through a shitty experience right now... and somehow it made remember a lot of things, and it just hitted me that I haven't commit myself to Mariel the way I did with Ireri. Is strange, but last time I was in love I even started building my life around my girl... every step I made had her escence all over it, but now I "know better", now I won't allow myself to put all my eggs in one basket. I love Mariel, love every little thing about her, but I haven't let go.
Why is that? Am I protecting myself at some uncouncious level? Or this is the way relationships get?
I know that if I get married of end up sharing my life with someone, I would like her to be a girl like Mariel... so what the fuck?
Bargh... hehehehe...
I just wish I don't end up doing anything stupid that I'll regret for the rest of my life.
(sorry for my spelling errors and stuff... quick post)
1 Comments:
At 6:52 AM,
Shadow Walker said…
You just go on living.. time will give you the answers to 'what you should do'..
Cheers dude! thank goodness you didn't put "all of your eggs in one basket" again.. ^_^! (I mean it, it's quite notable!)
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